You don’t have to see your life so simplistically as: “I like my life” or “I don’t.” First, it doesn’t matter whether you like it or not — it just is — and when you define your life narrowly, then N’s rhetorical attack can get a foothold (and when I don’t define it, N would say I’m prevaricating, I’m afraid to, etc. N’s viewpoint allows, brooks, little opposition.
But life goes on and changes. Maybe you are doing the best you can with your life now.
10:28 — back from potty break and CNBC. Ok, where was I? Something about letting go of this thought that my life is bad and letting go, being present, not attached to that abstract comment, that mere idea. Right, let go, let go that idea. It’s sorta interesting but not permanent by any means. You don’t’ need to argue stuff with N, with your mental image of N.
[From journal of Friday, 11 July 2008, Journal 103, pages 72-3]